By: Courtney Hollingsworth, PLPC
I don’t think it a coincendence that many of our posts on this blog have talked about the lost and silent feeling that often accompanies pain, sadness, loss, grief, suffering, sorrow, depression, darkness, etc., like here and here and here, to just name a few. In these dark places in our lives and hearts, we are often at a loss for words or just don’t know where to start. In the Bible, godly people would cry out to God in prayer from those places, and it is called a Lament. I’m sure you can see that this is the root word for “lamenting.” There are many Laments in the Psalms and the book of Job, which God has given us. You can also write your own. A great book on this is A Sacred Sorrow, by Michael Card. Here is a a prayer of pain modeled after the way God has shown us in the Bible.
By: Lianne Johnson, LPC
by Jonathan Hart, LPC
SPOILER ALERT: for those who haven’t read the Harry Potter or Hunger Games series, there may be plot spoilers in the following paragraphs, though I will try hard not to reveal too much.
My wife and I were discussing some of our thoughts about how the books The Deathly Hallows and Mockingjay ended, and how they served to wrap up their respective series. We were thoroughly disappointed in each and for similar reasons. The core of our disappointment was the principle of “putting a bow on ugly”.
The Harry Potter series ended with an epilogue titled “19 years later”, that (we felt) too neatly and agreeably attempted to wrap up all the threads from the series. The fact that Harry named a child after the person who most utterly despised him and treated him viciously even behind closed doors was just too much. I can see coming to respect him, but one simply does not name a child after an abuser of this magnitude. All the ugliness seemed to have inexplicably vanished.
The Hunger Games series tried to do the same thing, though the attempt at closure was somewhat better. The author at least attempted to acknowledge that ugly existed in the post-story world, but it was still resolved too simplistically and without the flesh to make it believable for me.
Hollywood and fiction train us to expect that all the loose ends can be resolved, that resolution equals “happily ever after” or at least a reasonable facsimile thereof. They train us to need things to work out that way. This is most plainly true in the (despicable and utterly useless) genre known as “Romantic Comedy”. I cannot say more without using profanity.
Think of the sense of disappointment or unease when you watch a movie in which resolution is not clean or neat. We recently watched the movie Moneyball, which does not conclude with a “Hollywood Ending”. I can only say that the events depicted happened within the recent lifetimes of many, and as such could not be modified to fit the pattern described above. I feel that if they were more ancient history they would likely have been changed into something completely victorious.
This is fine, and even necessary (to a degree) for celluloid. The unfortunate side effect is that because reality is very much different, many people are left with a sense of disappointment and even despair when real life does not work that way. The truth is that human beings are generally a broken, selfish lot that is capable of both great goodness and great evil, often within a single breath.
The fact is that intimacy, real relationship, and engaging responsibly with another human being is often like a wrestling match. The very best relationship in the world experiences conflict and disagreement, hurt and offense, misunderstanding and tension on an ongoing basis. The couple who tells you that “never a harsh word is spoken” is either whitewashing, outright lying, or they are not experiencing real, deep intimacy.
If you are going to really do deep, intimate relationship with another person, you’d better know how to fight. I don’t mean knowing how to eviscerate your opponent in the shortest period of time. I mean knowing how to hold in tension the following two truths: 1. This other person and I are on the same side, and 2. There is pain and friction between us.
When I talk about knowing how to fight, I mean knowing how to understand and express my own feelings and thoughts in a way that does not accuse or attack the other, even when it is plainly and wholly their fault. I mean learning how to uphold their honor and dignity while feeling the painfully powerful desire to rip their eyes out. I mean knowing how to view conflict as a necessary part of doing relationship, and not as a threat to relationship.
It is often one of the hardest lessons to learn in relationship that resolution is not about coming to agreement, but rather it is about coming to a deeper understanding of the other person, and thereby learning how to craft a unique relationship between the two of you. No part of that process is clean, neat, or simple. It is ugly, and to expect or demand otherwise only leads to disappointment. You can put a bow on it if you like, but that doesn’t make it easier to look at. It takes patience, forgiveness, grace, mercy, and love. When you’ve come to the other side of it, it will still be ugly, but there is a beauty in what has been created by moving through it that will last a lifetime.